Dear Dad

I feel quite unsettled today. Not emotionally, but physically, like I only exist in my head. When I thought of what you would say to help that disconnectedness, I heard "Go outside and take a walk". Going outside must have helped you tremendously. It gave you enough clarity and peace to keep going. And it was where you found your peace in the end. It's been one month since you left your body. We all miss you. But I'm happy that you're no longer in pain.

I think I'll go outside and take a walk today. Thanks to my father-in-law, I now have access to land that feels somewhat like my home, and perhaps I'll go walk that later tonight with my drum. I have a drum waiting to be made- with elk hide on a 15" frame. It has your energy in it and the energy of my experience with your passing. I think the drum will come during the next new moon.

I miss you.